wordy monday

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The last few weeks have been challenging.

I've been trying to focus on what I really want in terms of career and what that means for my family.

A few months ago, I had a conversation with a lady that I really admire. She basically has the job that I've been working on for myself. She is super talented and with a shit ton of hard work has become super successful in the local floral industry. We talked about lots of things, particularly about where I wanted to go with what I've been doing lately.

The fact of the matter is I want work for myself.

I want to work with couples to create events that reflect them-their personality, their style. I want to provide planning, florals and styling. This is a huge undertaking but it's something that I feel like I've been slowly running toward for a long time.

Starting a business takes a mountains of energy and cash. I have plenty of one and not enough of the other. I feel selfish asking my husband to dip into the savings to get this off the ground(especially when I have no real training!) My goal of working for myself from home so that I can get some balance in life and have a more flexible schedule for the baby we want to have(which isn't happening...another reason for some sadness around here)

Anyway, this wall of text is an explanation of sorts. Trying to come to the place where dreams and reality are not battling each other but balancing each is tough. Having all of these dreams and run full steam ahead and  having that tempered with caution and a level head(neither of which is my strong suit) is a little disheartening.

If anyone other than my bff and my family have read this far....thank you!!!!

So yeah, there have some cute outfits that I've loved but I've been spending my time trying to work out a business plan and start up costs.  

Anyhoo, I miss you guys!