Wednesday, October 26, 2011

mad for plaid


Thank you so much for all of your words of encouragement on my last post!!!
Since I'm not working today I thought I'd break out these ridiculously high heeled booties. If lovin' 'em is wrong, I don't wanna be right:) 
I've also forgotten how much effort it takes for me to move gracefully in heels. Did I ever tell you I'm a klutz? 
So yesterday I had a conversation with a friend about how I put outfits together. Hmm, honestly these days there is no rhyme or reason. I usually have something I want to wear and I try to not look too ridiculous. Yup, that about sums it up. Wear something I like and try to avoid looking like an ass! Ha!Brilliant!!;)

We're headed out for dinner to celebrate my daughter's birthday. That's right she's turning the big 2-0!
I remember the day she was born so clearly. I was so excited to meet her! I was also terrified because I had absolutely no idea what the heck I was doing!!! I wanted to be the best mother possible. In some ways I've fallen very short of that goal. My one regret about having children so young isn't that I had them, it's that they had a mom that was still trying to figure out so much about herself:(

I'm so proud of you and so proud to be your Mom!     

I love you R! 
Happy Birthday!!!

Monday, October 24, 2011

wordy monday


The last few weeks have been challenging.
I've been trying to focus on what I really want in terms of career and what that means for my family.
A few months ago, I had a conversation with a lady that I really admire. She basically has the job that I've been working on for myself. She is super talented and with a shit ton of hard work has become super successful in the local floral industry. We talked about lots of things, particularly about where I wanted to go with what I've been doing lately.
The fact of the matter is I want work for myself.
I want to work with couples to create events that reflect them-their personality, their style. I want to provide planning, florals and styling. This is a huge undertaking but it's something that I feel like I've been slowly running toward for a long time.

Starting a business takes a mountains of energy and cash. I have plenty of one and not enough of the other. I feel selfish asking my husband to dip into the savings to get this off the ground(especially when I have no real training!) My goal of working for myself from home so that I can get some balance in life and have a more flexible schedule for the baby we want to have(which isn't happening...another reason for some sadness around here)

Anyway, this wall of text is an explanation of sorts. Trying to come to the place where dreams and reality are not battling each other but balancing each is tough. Having all of these dreams and run full steam ahead and  having that tempered with caution and a level head(neither of which is my strong suit) is a little disheartening.

If anyone other than my bff and my family have read this far....thank you!!!!
So yeah, there have some cute outfits that I've loved but I've been spending my time trying to work out a business plan and start up costs.  
Anyhoo, I miss you guys!

Monday, October 3, 2011

honey mustard

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Nothin' like a Monday to b***h slap you back to reality! Yesterday I had a lovely day at home with the husband. I even made the best caramel apple pie...ever!!! Which we totally ate as dinner-because I was too exhausted from baking to figure out the rest of dinner..oops;)

But today, my friends, I have the Monday-itchy, burning, watery-eyed, my allergies are killing me- blues!! My son had a doctor's appointment and I had to make a grocery run so not getting dressed wasn't an option. I started out with an entirely different look in mind but nothing was coming together. In times like this I rely on some old favorites. A comfy cardigan, cords and my favorite flat shoes.

Now it's time for a cup of tea and my allergy meds!

And a little bit of cute so this post isn't so Debbie Downer........ 

Hubby closed the pool today(boo!!!) Here's Henry relaxing on the pool cover:)